MOMMA SLEEPS WITH A GUN UNDER THE PILLOW

I think my perception of fear may fall under the catagory of bi-polar. Sometimes I am scared, sometimes I am not and most of the time the fazes lean toward the extreme.

As most of you already know, Andy has been out of town for a couple weeks while he is learning to drive a truck. Yeah it suprises me too. Anyway, it is one of those things he thinks will be stable for him until I finish school. And, I can't fault him for thinking that way. He really does a great job at being head of household even when it means being on the road for awhile.

With Andy being gone, I have been in paranoia mode. It's not like I should be scared to be alone. Shoot, I did it for 3 years before he moved here to NY. Why all the sudden? It is bad though. I can't fall asleep at night so, I have to stay up real late trying to get as tired as I can. Just before bed, I boobie trap the stairs, and block my bedroom door, and sleep with the phone under my pillow with a flash light. I do such a good job at boobie trapping the stairs, no burglar stands a chance! ha.

Anyway, last week I absentmindedly, mentioned to a neighbor that Andy was out of town. Opps! I'm already scared enough, now the neighbors know. I tried to recover by telling them that before Andy left he was given strick instructions on not comming home without making sure I know. If he suprises me, I.m likely to shoot him.

The neighbors gave me look that said "Hey, I believe you, and I will spread the news". Now, at least if there is a rumor about me being home alone, it goes with the fact that I sleep with a gun under my pillow.

MY MOTHER IS SO SMART

People often wonder how my mom was able to manage having so many kids, so close in age (9 years: oldest to youngest). In fact, some people might even think she was a bit crazy. I personally remember asking her the same question too. You know what she told me?
It was easy. You only cost $300.00 a piece.
Not exactly what I was wondering mom! I meant... Didn't we drive you crazy?



She says that from the time she was a little girl, she always wanted a bunch of kids. Not sure if she knew just how many or not, but from what I understand, the reason there are 6 is because she wanted each of us to grow up with a friend. If she stopped at me, I would have been lonely, so she had Lori. Then, came Francie. If she had stopped with her, Francie would be lonely and we wouldn't have Natalie.



You see, I'm kind of in a bind here as I only have one. Madeline, being an only child, dosen't have a built in friend, and for that, I am... CRAZY (or getting closer and closer every day). Siblings just know the boundries and usually work things out without too many battle wounds. Unfortunately, Madeline will never understand the bond of sisters or brothers (that she is close in age with).

I am so glad I am a product of such a smart woman. Maybe if Rachael hadn't taken so many of the 'smart' genes, I would have known better and had two. HA

I suppose I should be greatful for the next best option though. At least we only live 3 miles from my brother who has 4 children. Madeline loves her cousins and she is really close with them. It just dosen't help me when Madeline is at home and complains about being bored.

Disclosure notice: This post is not to be about me wanting more kids. It is me, venting about a very frustrating weekend of dealing with a bored, only-child. UGGH! Why? Oh, why?

MENTAL HEALTH DAY

Madeline and I were very lucky that it stormed last night; it made the power go out just long enough to mess up the alarm clock. Instead of getting up at the crack of dawn, Maddy got to sleep in, on a school day, until 9:30am.

I realized at 10 till 7 that the bus had already come and gone. So, I got up, layed on the couch, and finally called her teacher and told her I would bring Maddy to school after lunch. I let her sleep until she naturally woke up. Then we putzed around, and did a whole lot of nothing.

We both needed a day like today. She was a much happier girl when I picked her up after school and we had a good evening together.

ACCOUNTABILITY STATEMENT RE: RUNNING?

I was going to email my sister Rachael this morning in regard to getting a CD of her play list. It is in effort to motivate me from the couch to running. Instead of emailing her, I decided to go public with the fact that I want to start running. Maybe, just maybe, I will join the 10K that a couple of sisters are gearing up for in the spring.

Rachael, will you really burn me a CD? One strange request though: will you include at least one up-beat song from Brittney Spear's first album?

Now, as soon as I get that play list CD you can all inquire about my progress. Until then... I plan to think about it so it won't be such a shock to my system.

For the record though, I did go through basic training. After I got over the hurt of running, I actually liked it. While training continued, I would run 5 miles on a day off just because. Once I got home... Well, I've been rebelling ever since.

THANK YOU, LORI!

I know, I know! It has been a very long time since my last post. It isn't because I haven't had plenty to blog about either. Time just got away...

Notice my new blog layout? I like it too! My sister Lori, suprised me with it over the weekend. It should make it alot more fum to write on. I started to add a few things to the side bar. Not finished with it yet, but it is a start. I'm kind of slow with the whole computer thing. It took me the amount of time it would have taken to write a new post (and then some). So, I thought it should count. Not according to Lori! She signed in under my name and told me I had better post or she might take back her design. Um, I thought about changing my password, but I have no clue how. Plus, it is nice that Lori can edit(or change) my blog when I get frustrated.

Thank you Lori! I really like it. I'll post something more fun tommorow.